Daily Prompt: First Light (Seven Whoopers Short of Major Depression)

Coping With Depression

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” ― Rumi

In my quest to become more physically fit, I decided to try jogging. Hearing the swish of tracksuits and seeing the psychedelic trail of rainbow-tinged sneakers following the trail of my grey concrete block every morning, teased my curiosity to a fever pitch.  I just had to try it!  Plus the perk of no membership dues and the pavement always being readily available, made temptation impossible to resist.

Before hitting the pavement, I did research.  Keywords, like “jogging” and “running” turned up an abundance of informative websites devoted to these popular forms of exercise.  I came across an app that would train me to jog 5K in 8 weeks.  After downloading it into my iPod, I prepared for my jogging debut the next day.

My first jog was 20 minutes alternating 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking.  I completed it with no difficulty.  The next week couldn’t come fast enough.  Watching the sunrise and feeling the crisp dawn air cascade over my body was exhilarating.  It wasn’t until the fourth week I began to experience difficulty.  My knees became a little sore and after ice alongside rest, they recovered.  So I thought.

Something terrible happened after my last run on the program.  While stretching, my knees “clicked” loudly.  My knees immediately became swollen and radiated with pain. I limped to the medicine cabinet took two painkillers, got an ice pack and went straight to bed.  Gradually the pain increased until I couldn’t walk or stand for more than five minutes.

After missing mass for a week, the monsignor of my church called me to inquire about my absence.  He told me he would keep me in prayer and to return once my health improved.  Guilt propelled my week legs to the nearest drugstore to purchase a leg brace.  While searching for a brace I encountered a large box of Whoopers on sale for a dollar. “These would make me feel better!” I thought to myself and placed them in my shopping cart and limped to the checkout line.  While waiting for the bus, I ripped open the top of the Whoopers box and fed my anguish with sweet chocolate deliciousness.

Over the next few days, I would periodically pop the top for a “hit.”  As the box became lighter in my hands, I examined the content to see how many chocolate pieces remained.  To my surprise only seven remained.  Shame pierced my heart, because I allowed my agony to get the best of me.  The Whoopers didn’t relieve my sorrow and only provided a temporary fix to my emotional distress.  I trashed the remaining pieces and vowed to attend mass the next day.

After mass the next day, my monsignor saw my tattered knees and told me he would speak to a chiropractor that was a member of the congregation.  He told me to attend the early mass on Sunday.  Sure enough the chiropractor was there.  I knew this was divine intervention and my request for healing was granted.  The chiropractor checked my knees and told me the meniscuses in both knees are inflamed.  He agreed to treat me free of charge at his office.  He was so generous that he even realigned my ankles at church.  Humility and unworthiness struck my heart because I didn’t deserve such treatment.

Tuesday, I had my first rehab session. My knees feel remarkably better.  For ten minutes I can stand without being overwhelmed with pain.  My recovery process will take about a month.  In gratitude I will follow the doctor’s orders and welcome God’s restorative powers.  After completing my rehab sessions through the grace of God, I will walk again normally.

Why am I so confident about my recovery?  My knees will work again because God revealed me the depths of His Divine Mercy.  God was teaching me a lesson in patience and after repeated hints went ignored, He allowed me become fully aware of the damage I was causing my body.  I don’t know if I will jog again, but from now on, God will be my personal trainer and not my ego.

O Lord my God, I cried to you for help, and you have healed me. (Psalm 30:2-3)

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Daily Prompt: Ready, Set Go (Little Girl Who Fed a Bird)

Help others

“The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

Little Girl Who Fed a Bird

Everyone needs a helping hand.
To prop them up when they are unable to stand.

Everyone needs a kind phrase.
Bringing consolation to a spirit overpowered by fatigue.

Everyone needs a tight embrace.
A reason to stop and realize that life is not a race.

Every time we help another.
We cultivate the Kingdom of the Creator.

© 2013 Jade Jarvis

35 For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36 I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ 37 Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? 38 And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? 39 And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ 40 And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers you did it to me.’ (Matthew 25:35-40)

Weekly Photo Challenge: Surprise (In The Money)

Money Surprise

“There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved.”
― Charles Morgan

Click, Clack… Surprise!
Click blue, clack grey.
A speck of green gets in my way.
White cotton paper sketched with symbols.
A gift from God, Annuit Coeptis.

©2012 Jade Jarvis

“2 Count it all joy, my brothers,when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (James 1:2-4)

English: EcoDemocracia

English: EcoDemocracia (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Weekly Photo Challenge: Delicate (Living Waters)

Raindrops

“All water has a perfect memory and is forever trying to get back to where it was.”
― Toni Morrison

Living Waters

Watching raindrops reminds me of the frailty of life.

How change is a constant companion in mortal existence.

One minute you are up, the next you are down.

To continue evolution, we must rise in perseverance.

©2012 Jade Jarvis

37 On the last day of the feast, the great day, Jesus stood up and cried out, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. 38 Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’” (John 7:37-38)

Repentance At the Shore

“The heavens will not be filled with those who never made mistakes but with those who recognized that they were off course and who corrected their ways to get back in the light of gospel truth.”
― Dieter F. Uchtdorf

At sunset, my weary body rests on the ground.

Fingers stretched gripping sand.

Bronzed skin glistens under the citrus sun.

As the sun mingles with the horizon, anguish sets in.

Inhaling salty air into my lungs.

Distracts my eyes from trailing tears to my lips.

“I am sorry,” are three words I am too proud to say.

Apologies echo throughout my dreams until night turns into day.

Guilt, sorrow, fear and confusion I leave at the shore.

Sea foam washes my crown and I emerge pure.

©2012 Jade Jarvis

“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”  (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Confidence to Love

Mother Mary

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.”
― Siddhārtha Gautama

Self-love is accepting the positivity and negativity dwelling within and having the confidence to replace darkness with light.

“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.” (1 Peter 2:9)

Measure Your Words

“Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt.” ― Abraham Lincoln

An argumentative person is reduced to a raging ego. Before venting, carefully measure your words before they exit your mouth. You may save yourself from arguing with someone who actually agrees with you.

“Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly.” (Proverbs 14:29)

Empty Wallet, Full Heart

Lie Still In Peace

“Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.”
― Lao Tzu

An empty wallet rests in my pocket.
No money to pay bills, but when the moon rises, soundly I lay my head to rest.

Don’t need couture makeup, clothes, purses and shoes.
Confidence and a luminous tan are my signature accessories.

I have the one thing money can’t buy it’s called happiness.
Filled with peace, my mind is impenetrable to stress.

Simplicity brings contentment.
For I already have all I want.

©2012 Jade Jarvis

“11 Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. 12 I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.” (Philippians 4:11-12)

Birthday Epiphany: Vol. 30

Birthday Cake

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” ― Dr. Seuss

Love is the dominant force in my life. Each year God brings awesome people in my life, to give me the essential support to confidently hike the narrow path. Obstacles may sprout in my trail, but also will roses.

“4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

Farewell Twenties, Welcome Thirties

Birthday Cake

Time and Tide wait for no man, but time always stands still for a woman of thirty. ― Robert Frost

30
Farewell twenties.
Welcome thirties.

No longer green behind the ears.
Ripe with wisdom gained throughout the years.

Willfully living through purpose.
I am joyfully living my best life.

©2012 Jade Jarvis

“Upon you I have leaned from before my birth; you are he who took me from my mother’s womb. My praise is continually of you.” (Psalm 71:6)